High School Obsession

I say obsession, cause that's what it was with a boy that was a year ahead of me in school. I know that now, If you would have asked me back then I would have said "crush". I think I know the difference now. Gosh, people who knew back then probably thought I was crazy!

Green eyes, black hair and the body - Dee-licious! I knew almost everything about this boy. Everything that I could figure out without actually speaking to him. I even marked by body because of it. It's minimal though, no one has even asked about it that has seen me shirtless.

The other day I was telling the story to a buddy. Oddly enough they had the same name. I have yet to date anyone that shared the same name. At least that way the letter on my upper arm could serve as another purpose. Now it just serves as a reminder to my foolish teenage obsession. It's like a scar, they all have stories and forever with you.

I was always curious as to what happened to him. I discovered him recently on Myspace. Men are easier to find, their names don't change if they happen to get married.

Time can be cruel sometimes on the aging process. I think I have closure to now to "Whatever happened to so and so". I'm not saying time has riddled him unattractive. I always thought he was that unobtainable creature that was inferior to me in the looks department. Time has done him no favors. I have closure now and time has been easier on me. I'm no longer the shy nerdy gay boy I was in high school. Thank goodness for that!